You know when you're angry with someone, and you've got all the reasons in the world to justify the fact that you're pissed off?

Oh, good, you do.

Well then you also know the part where the person you're mad at says something that totally puts all those reasons you had to crap.

I got in a fight with my mom today.

I won't tell you what it was over, but the point is, I had a whole list of reasons why my anger was justified.

But then she went and did that whole "I'm your mother, and I've done (insert a billion and five amazing things here) for you," thing.

And now, I just feel like an ungrateful jackass.

I'm just so frustrated lately.
I feel like a failure.

I want to help my family so much, take the burden off of my parents' tired shoulders.
But how can I?

I'm just a sixteen year old with a job at Arby's.
And I start college in the fall.
I've got a wedding to start saving for.

My parents have done so much for me.
My dad gave up almost all of his time at home with his family for the past twenty years so he could keep a roof over our heads, buy us almost everything we've ever asked for, and all the amazing things we never thought to.

My mom gave up her dream career, to stay at home constantly with her family.
To raise her children.

It's funny how they've always had completely opposite roles, and how they've both always wanted what the other one had.

The point is, they've worked together to give me happy, comfortable life.
And then I say something terrible like I did.

I really am grateful.
Its just when I'm upset I forget about all the other things I've done to make things even.

I'm sorry mom. I love you.